Change is good, change is hard. Right now, though, my heart feels heavy, and it just feels hard.
Today, you started kindergarten. You seemed nervous, but stayed brave, and through your example, I stayed brave, too. I am missing you right now, and I suspect that feeling will not go away anytime soon. I miss you seeing you cuddling with our cat on your bed, playing with your Littlest Pet Shop, explaining your scientific theories to me in your Jersey accent. I miss my sidekick. At the back-to-school parents’ party at friends’ home right after dropping you off at school, for a brief instant, I had the feeling you had been out of my sight just a little too long, and had the instinct to go look for you, until I realized you weren’t with me at all. Change is good. Change is hard.
Eloïse, I am so proud of you. You and your sister are the greatest joys of my life, and nothing I can say will encompass all that you have enabled me to experience. I have no doubt you will love school, have lots of fun, learn interesting things, and make wonderful friends. I am so thrilled for you to have reached this very important milestone, and I look forward to watching you experience all the wonderful things that will come of it.
Sisi, you are so smart, kind-hearted, funny, and loyal. Always remember that about yourself, and surround yourself with friends who will remind you if you ever forget. I believe you are one of the purest souls I will ever meet, not in a naïve way, but rather, in an honest one. You are true, through and through, and it is the greatest honour to be your mother.
I love you, I love you, I love you.
I will see you when the bell rings.